Surprise!!!! Big news… is on the blog today. I can’t wait to share a little secret that I’ve been keeping for a while. I still can’t believe it myself.
It is with the most absolute and sheer joy of happiness for me to be writing this post today to share with all of you. This has probably been one of my hardest post to write though because it is so hard to get down exactly how I’m feeling into words. I want to be able to express perfectly how my heart feels so I can come back and read this one post over and over and over. I don’t always share a lot of my personal life on here, so I’m anxious and excited to do so today. I hope to be able to let that guard down a little more today and hopefully bless someone else at the same time. So I’m just going to go ahead and put it out there…
WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!
First I want to say that I am eternally grateful and amazed at God’s goodness in my life. We don’t understand His plans always, but you can also guarantee that when you have walked through a season then you will be able to look back and always see His hand was at work and that He never left your side.
Becoming pregnant is not always a simple “Hey let’s try to have a baby,” and then the next month you miss your period and have a positive pregnancy test. Not everyone gets pregnant even on birth control by accident. Not everyone has a honeymoon baby. For others the day that stick says positive feels like it will never come. You see every other woman in your life posting on social media or announcing to family that special day came for them. Well that was exactly the case for me for the last several years. All I had ever wanted to be since a young girl was a wife and Mom. When you suddenly hear the enemy whispering lies that those dreams will never become a reality, your faith must rise. (Much much easier said than actually done.)
I had married my prince charming and had dreams come true almost 7 years ago. Then when this hurdle came along, the enemy was sure to be there to try and knock me down. But I just wouldn’t have it. I couldn’t. I could not live the rest of my life wondering how things would have been different if I would have just stayed faithful to God’s Word and depend on His will and not mine. Now getting to that point where you can lay your own dreams aside is another whole story. It took me many long days, nights, tears, questioning, screaming, and so much more to finally say “God, my life is not mine but yours.” God never once left me and knew that my dreams would come true. I just had to be faithful and depend on Him.
Depending where you are in a season of your life, please be reminded today through this post that I don’t take your pain lightly or careless. I pray for all those that are hurting in much the same way that my husband and I did too. There are days that you probably feel completely alone. I know I did. It doesn’t matter that someone else knows how you feel, you just don’t want to hurt and want things to be different. I get it. I felt that way too. What I can say is that God will never leave you. Knowing I had Him on my side is what helped me through each and every day.
Second, my husband is an absolute rockstar!! My first trimester consisted of nausea all day long. *Now for a little disclaimer, I am not complaining when I mention pregnancy symptoms. These are just the facts. I’m grateful for these symptoms no matter how bad I may feel at the time.
For many weeks, Mark was the one that cooked, cleaned, did laundry, took care of our puppies, and so much more. He never complained one bit, but was genuinely excited to be able to help me since I am the one that carries the baby. He felt like he could be a part in helping me and our baby. And man was he a huge help. I felt guilty just laying on the couch after work every day and sleeping majority of the time. But both our Moms assured me that I should enjoy every minute of it and get all the rest I could now. Great advice by the way.
Below are several pictures that we have been taking each week of the baby bump from week 16-week 23. I am about 24 1/2 weeks when this post goes live. I want to come back next week and share our story of how we found out I was pregnant and maybe a little bit about how the journey has been so far so make sure to keep your eye out for that. And please let me know in the comments if you have anything you would like for me to pray about for you. Or if you feel comfortable, let me know if you can relate to how we felt. There is so much to say about not being alone during those tough times of life.
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